---wIsHin9 fOr a fAiRyLanD..

[[* A Blessing *]]

I never asked
For a blessing like you.
Like I've spoken to God
And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person
To love and to hold.
To be loyal and faithful
Not angry and cold.

God placed you on the earth
As a quest to find.
The one who would be there
So sweet and kind.

In my wildest dreams
I would have denied.
That something so perfect
Could at all be supplied.

You have such a sweet face,
But you are so much more.
You're my boyfriend and I love you,
Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement
I give you and pray,
That you'll love me forever,
And forever you'll stay.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Traumatised...

ok.. din nuth much... rained the whole day.. got traumatised by someone in dance... -.-||

got the vibes tt it mite rain today.. so decided to wear jeans.. tot of wearing 3/4 sleeves... bt decided against it cox later vibes salahx buay zhun.. then i will die of the heat.. then went to sch, met up with Sheena, Wei Yu and Jieying.. then walked to blk 56 for IS lessons.. stupid redundant stuff if u ask mi.. ya.. then so zhun, it started raining i think halfway thru CATS.. so i pretty glad tt i wore jeans instead of skirt lor.. but oso so suay.. my jeans like super long la.. so got wet at the bottom.. i sian ji pua.. then went WAA then met Sheena, Wei Yu and Jieying again.. then cox i nv bring my dance shoes.. so i went hm lor.. Sheena came with mi too.. ya.. then after i took my shoes, we left for sch again lor.. then went Canteen 1 to makan.. then she went for guitar, i went for my dance.. ya.. got a friend to join dance with mi too.. =) finally i got a dance partner.. haha.. ya.. then halfway thru dance.. i got traumatised by some stupid girl who wore short short skirt (one of the snrs..) then sit with her legs opened... i was facing her lor!! then she has got those sweet sweet chio chio face.. then slim slim de.. then sit with her legs OPENED!!! WTH... so traumatised.. juz cant match the face with wat she did lor.. u wun expect her to do tt de lor.. then she oso smokes.. spoil her image.. so chio.. then smoke.. -.-|| *shakes head* juz cant stand it la.. chio, smoke, dunno hw to sit properly.. then Daniel made it worse by traumatising mi further... kept toking abt it.. everytime i forget le, he brings it up.. -.-|| bt nvm la.. he's DANIEL... wat to do.. haha.. then after tt wanted to go makan with the grp de.. bt the girls weren't going.. so i oso nv go.. then in the end, everyone nv go.. so i guai guai go hm lor.. haha.. tt's abt it la.. bt still quite bothered abt tt snr.. cant she juz sit properly... facing the mirror somemore! still can open so damn long, stare at her reflection... machiam damn nice like tt.. come on la.. be more decent can.. dun spoil ur image plz.. thankew! and dun face the mirror and open ur legs... face the wall if u want to do so.. and dun do it in front of everyone! ESP. MI!! thankew.

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10:59 PM

Monday, December 27, 2004

*~* Life's so short *~*

Hmm... new blog... ya.. decided to start a new one where i'll blog wat goes thru my mind lor.. yea...

Was watching the charity show yesterday.. when they announced tt 1 of the patient who agreed to be interviewed during the show had passed away a few days ago.. i dunno y.. bt my eyes filled up with tears all of a sudden.. the next thing i tot of was, what if 1 day, 1 of my family succumb to some disease too.. and they leave mi.. wat will i do.. will i be able to stand by myself? will i be able to carry on? I doubt i can.. I ask myself again.. do i show them tt i appreciate them? do i tell them tt I love them?? i dun.. i cant bring myself to say it.. it's juz so hard.. the first time i told my mum (exclude when i was young) tt 'I love U' was quite sometime back.. when i juz went thru an ordeal.. when i reflected on wat i haf done.. when i regretted having done wat i did.. when i felt at lost.. when i tot i had no one left for mi to lean on.. my mum was there... she hugged mi.. i cried in her arms.. i told her 'I love U'.. I dunno wat i will do without her.. without my dad.. without my bro.. bt so often.. i take them for granted.. take wat they do for mi for granted.. bt everytime, im such an idiot to juz ignore the things they did for mi.. the hardship they go thru to give mi wat i want..

3 simple words can make a great difference.. it can heal the deepest wound.. give warmth even during the coldest winter.. make someone feel impt.. it tells others hw impt they r to u.. u may think they dun care.. aint interested.. bt the truth is, they wanna noe they mean sth to u.. to noe tt they made a difference in ur life.. wun u wanna noe if u left ur footprints in someone else's life too? wun u wanna noe tt u're impt to someone?? To my family and frens out there: .:. I LOVE U .:. for all tt u've done for mi.. for the guidance, patience u haf shown.. and everything little thing..

Life's so short.. when u've finally achieve wat u want, it's time to go.. when u finally build up enuff courage to speak from ur heart, they left.. Life's juz too short to do so many things.. Honestly speaking.. i realli dun wanna live till 60... i noe i was brought onto earth for a reason.. i juz wanna accomplish wat im here for and live... i want nobody to weep over my dead body for im already dead.. i wun noe if u're crying or rejoicing.. i doubt i will even care... i wun even be able to care.. wat's impt is nt hw i died.. it's hw i lived my life..

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8:48 PM