---wIsHin9 fOr a fAiRyLanD..

[[* A Blessing *]]

I never asked
For a blessing like you.
Like I've spoken to God
And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person
To love and to hold.
To be loyal and faithful
Not angry and cold.

God placed you on the earth
As a quest to find.
The one who would be there
So sweet and kind.

In my wildest dreams
I would have denied.
That something so perfect
Could at all be supplied.

You have such a sweet face,
But you are so much more.
You're my boyfriend and I love you,
Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement
I give you and pray,
That you'll love me forever,
And forever you'll stay.

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Hate?? Is it realli Hatred??

Many of us say we hate this.. hate tt.. hate tt person.. bt.. do we realli hate tt person?? do we realli hate tt thing? or watever it is?? or are we juz jealous of certain aspects.. jealous cox somebody else has it.. bt we dun.. after writing the previous posts.. i tot abt it.. mayb im juz jealous.. or mayb i was irritated.. provoked to the point tt i cudnt take it.. tt i gotta say it out.. i aint realli sure myself.. it's juz a thin line.. juz like the line between good and evil.. so thin tt it doesn't seem to exist at all..

Some blogs i read.. ppl i noe.. ppl tt mean lots to mi.. means lots to many others.. yet.. they nv stop to think.. stop to realise tt there r ppl out there.. willing to help them.. willing to listen.. willing to cry with them... willing to juz spend a day out with them.. even if it's doing nth.. staring into space.. i noe this happen to a lot of ppl.. even myself.. sometimes i juz hate myself.. bt in the end.. i bang into a hard wall.. onli to realise it's juz self-pity.. it's useless.. it brings one to nowhere.. where do u expect to go when u keep pitying urself.. keep saying tt u cant do this.. cant do tt.. u're useless.. ppl leave u.. ppl make use of u.. u spoil ppl's day.. so wat's the outcome after saying tt? I'm saying this to everyone out there.. including myself alrite.. everyone say he/she hates this and tt.. hate this person for doing this to her.. for leaving u when u needed them.. for casting u aside after they found their happiness.. tt u haf no one else to rely on anymore.. except for a miserable 1 or 2.. or even none at all.. Cry... y be afraid to cry? crying helps.. it helps to let things out of u.. when u dun wanna tok abt it.. hug someone.. cry.. u cant cry becox u're a guy? becox guys shed blood bt nt tears? Plz!! Wake up.. we're in the 21st century.. heck wat other's think.. u're urself.. u're the king of urself.. y let wat ppl think and say affect u.. they're juz shallow in their thinking.. they do cry too.. except they're afraid to let ppl noe.. let others noe they need help.. they're weak.. come on! all of us are weak inside ok.. nvm if u dun wana admit it.. so be it..

Need company? Call! Sms! Msg! Anything.. who dun need company? except for some lonely souls out there who refuse to stoop to anything tt low to get company.. i need company.. i wun be afraid to let my frens noe i need it.. is it so difficult to get someone to accompany u when u need it? i've told ppl arnd mi.. ppl who mean alot to mi.. ppl who revolve arnd mi.. tt whenever they need someone.. they can call mi.. even if i din.. im telling u nw.. u juz hafta call or sms.. i'll join u.. bt if im in sch... plz let mi complete my lecture or pract first k.. otherwise.. yea.. i'll be out to join u in a jiffy..

Everyone jealous of another's family.. i've got frens saying they like my family.. a normal one.. where there's no clear line of differentiating my parents and us.. i tok to them like my frens.. nag if i haf to.. call them sickening.. suan them.. others may think it's rude.. bt tt's hw we communicate.. we treat each other like frens.. im still trying to open up to them though.. ya.. im jealous of my frens' families too.. y do they get so much freedom.. etc.. bt hey.. each family is different.. and is unique.. believe mi.. there are ppl out there who envy u for ur family... even if u think ur family is incomplete... try looking at it from a different angle.. u'll see hw perfect it is..

And plz! stop tt self-pity if u wanna get somewhere.. Stand up.. Move! dun let wat ppl think affect ur decision.. life's urs.. nt theirs.. heck wat they say.. juz dun go round killing ppl and say tt TIFFANY TAUGHT U SO.. I'll come after ur neck for sure.. Trust mi.. *sinister simile*

P.S.
Sometimes i think i've grown up.. onli to hit a darn wall and realise i haven.. i think i psychotic too.. *crazy grinx*

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