---wIsHin9 fOr a fAiRyLanD..

[[* A Blessing *]]

I never asked
For a blessing like you.
Like I've spoken to God
And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person
To love and to hold.
To be loyal and faithful
Not angry and cold.

God placed you on the earth
As a quest to find.
The one who would be there
So sweet and kind.

In my wildest dreams
I would have denied.
That something so perfect
Could at all be supplied.

You have such a sweet face,
But you are so much more.
You're my boyfriend and I love you,
Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement
I give you and pray,
That you'll love me forever,
And forever you'll stay.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Dunno where to start.. Dunno wat to say..

OK.. great.. i got lotsa things to rant and rattle on.. bt i dunno where to start.. n say in a civilised and not so offending way.. easiest way to describe wat i wanna say is @#$%^&*(*&^%#$%^&*&^% *I'm cursing*

Siansation.. sch juz started.. sch still sucks.. bt my frens are there.. so i guess it balances up n sch dun suck tt badly after all.. haha.. ok.. i still hate lectures.. cant stand my some lecturers.. reasons? too lazi to say.. ha~ juz reformatted my damn lappy.. so i gotta go REINSTALL all scienctific notebooks stuffs.. wat dreamweaver craps.. ARGH!!! Damn the IT world. Damn my lappy too.. hell~

wat's wrong with not wanting to go somewhere anw.. there r juz some days tt i rather stay home and slack than going out. *rolls eyes* hell. wat happened to human rights man~ sometimes i juz wanna bang my fists against something/someone.. probably beat the shit out of tt fellow or something.. crap~ dunno wat i wanna scream about nw.. and no.. having a boyfriend is definitely NOT helping.. i still rmb tt so called poem i wrote during WAA.. haha.. it's abt boyfriends.. useless.. not of much help.. redundant.. we can do without them.. etc etc.. cant rmb the whole actual thing.. yayaya.. slap mi plz.. i got a boyfriend myself.. shud haf juz stick to my poem man.. gawd~ i bet u guys this entry's gonna get mi into another quarrel with tt guy.. wonder how my mum put up with dad for 23/24 years.. *AMAZED* mum's my idol man.. her patience and all.. y din she pass mi those genes man.. sites of crossing exchanged wrong DNA.. haha~ mayb those chromosomes were recessive.. haha.. dad's more dominant i guess.. hahaha.. great.. now im at a loss for words.. wat to complain abt nw.. hmm...

Maths? nah.. u ppl noe how much i hate maths already.. i think.. hell.. i cant think of anything.. i think im gonna go into depression man.. argh~ so stressing.. ok. dun worry yet.. i haven tot of committing suicide.. when i start doing tt, stop mi k.. n do pardon mi if i start screaming at u for stopping mi.. tt wud be natural for someone hoping to die.. haha.. does depression include wanting to cry for no apparent reasons?? *wonders*

Suicide.. haha.. bet most of u din noe i tried slashing my wrists quite a number of times during secondary sch.. bt nth serious.. always kenna stopped when the blades' abt to go deeper.. y tt stupid vein so deep inside anw.. god's smart.. aiya.. dun bother trying to look for those cut marks la.. all healed nicely.. bt i think if u look closely enuff, u still can see some lines.. those were the deeper ones.. yet nt deep enuff to penetrate tt damn vein.. still rmb tt stupid doc i was brought to.. he can ask mi y my wrists like tt.. -.- cant he tell.. or was it becox he wanted mi to say it out myself.. crap.. who will tell the doc, ' no la.. nth much.. i tried committing suicide tt's all.' lame~ gave mi a jab.. i think juz in case the blade i used was rusty or sth.. shud had asked if he cub jab some morphine into mi too.. hahaha~ ok.. i think u guys gonna start panicking.. chill k.. i juz recalling tt's all.. start worrying when u see mi with cuts on my wrists..

OK.. back to tt crying for no apparent reason.. dun ask mi.. cox tt's wat i really feel like doing sometimes.. was at a friend's bday once.. and suddenly, i juz felt like crying.. crouch in some corner and start crying.. realli.. bt i held it back la.. after all, it's my fren's bday.. then go home liaox.. dun feel like crying already.. bah~ and i do cry when in a heated argument k.. it's natural for mi.. nt tt im scared or anything.. i cry out of anger too.. and ya.. idiots do take advantage of tt.. so they kpkb kpkb... and i cant interrupt.. *assholes* hell.. im training myself nt to cry in arguments k..

oh ya! i'm still against homosexuals.. i noe sg guys r nt up to sg girls' expectations and vice versa.. bt muz results to becoming homosexuals meh?? can go find foreigners rite.. juz my personal opinion la.. no offence k.. so much things to tok abt.. esp this topic.. haha.. if u're homosexual, for goodness sake.. leave tt groping/hugging/kissing/etc etc to somewhere private la.. there's r kids out there.. plus the pioneers of singapore.. spare them a tot too la.. and of cox, there r ppl like mi who thinks tt a guy kissing a guy, a girl kissing a girl is disgusting.. ok.. i dun wish to go on further.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY 'DADDY', DANIEL!!!

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