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December 2004'January 2005'March 2005'April 2005'May 2005'June 2005'July 2005'August 2005'September 2005'October 2005'November 2005'
y do i so often regret the decisions i make? y do i think abt the past? y do i miss a particular someone's company? wat wud i being doing nw if a particular someone was here? y cant i be more commited n decisive?
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Congratulations Tiffany, you are... You are independent, smart and beautiful. Its too bad you don't see that yourself because life's little difficulties brought down a lot of your self confidence. As a result, you talk cryptic and you don't trust people easily. You care a lot for your friends and your loved ones, sometimes even more than you care for yourself, although they don't always seem to appreciate it. Don't let that affect you. As the saying goes, you don't miss the water till the well runs dry. So hang in there, you're a star in the making.
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12:11 PM
next's my mum! i requested for a new skirt like so long ago.. cox those i haf r either too long.. i hate skirts tt goes below my knees.. or they're too small for mi already.. i even offered to pay half the price.. guess wat she did. she say no to mi.. ask mi go buy my own skirt using my own money.. n happily bought 3 stupid star wars tee for my 2 cousins who im tuitioning n 1 of her student.. fuck.. where she want mi to get the money from.. n i gotta pay my own fucking hp bills.. used to haf 2 lines.. then cut off the one she's paying for.. had a deal tt she'll pay the one im currently using.. bt hell no.. i had to pay those fucking bills by myself! n nt tt my aunt dun haf $ to buy clothes for her children.. and hell.. they give mi a whole bunch of probs during tuition! nt tt my cousins dun haf $ either.. blardy hell.. they're better off compared to mi.. buy for her student, tt i understand cox tt joker comes from a broken family n his mum's like retrenched or sth.. bt hell.. mum juz bought a star wars tee for tt joker like 2 days ago! n now he gets another tee while i get nothing! how nice can mothers be. then mum said tt i valued money more than i treasure her blah blah blah.. hello.. im human too ok.. n Im ur daughter! and i DO get jealous! and fuck it! u care more for ur stupid act-cute and always innocent nephews and niece! n not forgetting ur 'lovely' students tt u care so much for.. n im expected to do the same to them juz like u did! FAT HOPE!
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1:41 AM
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7:08 AM
In relationships.. nv was i able to find someone who i can truly trust and love.. someone who'll change n nt go back to square 1 when he says he'll change.. someone's who independent.. someone i can rely on.. a man.. nt a baby.. nt someone who checks on mi.. who checks my hp, copy my frens' number and call them when i cant be found.. checking my hp when i aint arnd.. snooping arnd my rm.. trying to steal my diary.. someone who cant take no for an answer.. i dun need someone who is dependent on mi.. dun want someone who cant stand on his own.. i want someone who'll respect my decision.. even if it's juz nt accompanying him to meet his frens or going hm.. what's wrong with nt wanting to go anywhere? giving me tt oh-so-i-cant-read-ur-sms look each time someone msges mi n i dun let u read it.. i dun want someone who thinks tt he's the onli one revolving around mi.. i need my freedom.. i need my privacy.. i want someone who can give mi those.. i dun give a shit abt $$.. i juz want my freedom n privacy.. is tt so difficult to give to mi? so u think tt everytime u loosen ur grip on mi, i get into trouble? haf u tot of who's the one who is pushing mi into those trouble? who's the one cutting off my oxygen supply tt i haf to find an alternative way out?! n when i find my way out, u haf to stand in my way.. u wanna tok? wat's there to tok abt? u took the most impt things away from mi.. replacing them with U, URSELF! there's nth left to tok abt.. let mi tell u the truth.. i can do without u. so ur definition of a relationship is controlling each other, not giving each other any freedom, taking away their privacy n cutting their oxygen supply so much so tt they get suffocated n believe tt u're the onli able to relieve tt of suffocation? For goodness sake, u can jolly well go FUCK urself.. screw urself anyway u deem fit n get the hell out of my life! I dun need u.. let mi stress on those words.. I DUN NEED U. in fact, i think i'll be happier without u. so go ahead.. make my day.
Go ahead.. call mi a bitch or anything u want ppl.. i dun realli care.. cox u ppl dun noe anything.. all u see is someone who's sweet, nice, caring, concerned and so understanding towards mi.. n yet i dun appreciate tt person.. well.. think abt it.. if he's realli so nice and all, y the shit hell wud i say i dun need him. i dun care wat u ppl say.. go ahead.. call mi a bitch.. a slut.. go ahead.. do it in front of mi.
I need my space.. I need FREEDOM.. I wun tolerate being locked up.. I'll retaliate in ways u'll nv expect.. I'll even kill if tt's wat it takes to regain my freedom..
9:14 PM
Ok.. i've been very guai since term started.. doing all my work/tuts/listening to lectures.. amazing rite.. haha.. nvm.. my classmates are too.. muahaha.. nvm~ anw.. i realli dunno wat to write lo.. nth to tok abt.. stupid alcohol caught fire during lab.. killed mice and fruitfly larvae.. dun like killing the larvae.. i squirmed each time tt stupid thing moved.. then in the end, jeremy help mi kill it.. muahaha.. eh... more of dissecting it actually.. ok.. so blardi bored~ argh!! wanna scream.. blahx.. who cares anyway.. ok.. shall end here..
7:32 PM
Anw.. he told mi my past.. as in how i got hurt in a relationship n nv did haf faith n courage to try again, giving my everything to try in another relationship.. how my ex(s) tried so hard to change juz for mi.. bt eventually, i left them still.. feeling tt i aint gd enuff for them.. tt im cheating them cox my heart's nt with them.. took so long to stand up after i fell after giving everything to a particular relationship.. i'm still trying to stand even till today.. i find it difficult to commit myself.. he told mi wat kinda guy im looking for.. he's rite.. im looking for someone who's nt so protective and sensitive.. someone who'll give mi space to breathe.. someone who is able to understand exactly wat i want n need.. someone who noes when to interfere n when nt to.. i half hope tt ppl will change for mi.. half wishing they wun change.. becox, if u change, u aint the same person anymore.. he told mi tt i;m a person who wud keep everything unhappy to myself.. how stressed i m.. etc etc.. im one who rather tt i suffer alone than having someone else suffer along with mi.. there's so many other things tt he told mi.. bt these r wat realli left mi thinking.. there's lotsa other things tt i wanna say.. bt.. i dunno hw to phrase it.. i'll leave those for another time.. when the feeling strikes mi n i feel like toking abt it.. *sigh* y m i so complicated?
11:08 AM
.Tiffany.
.Ngee Ann Poly.
.Biomedical Science.
.4th Sept 87.
~*[hEr LurVeSs..
.Sweets.
.Green Tea.
.My Darling Kitty.
~*[hEr HaTeSs..
.Backstabbers.
.Bitches.
.Fags.
.MYSELF.
~*[hEr WiShLisT..
.tt PINK E530C.
.nice heels as in footwear.
.Summer By Kenzo perfume.
.Lola perfume(found in mama's rm.. nice nice).
.Badminton racket.
.RollerBlades.
.Bicycle.
.Rebond/Perm my hair.
.Go for FACIALS.
.Get rid of those darn eye bags & dark rings.
.My 2 darlings to live in harmony & quit fighting everyday.