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[[* A Blessing *]]

I never asked
For a blessing like you.
Like I've spoken to God
And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person
To love and to hold.
To be loyal and faithful
Not angry and cold.

God placed you on the earth
As a quest to find.
The one who would be there
So sweet and kind.

In my wildest dreams
I would have denied.
That something so perfect
Could at all be supplied.

You have such a sweet face,
But you are so much more.
You're my boyfriend and I love you,
Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement
I give you and pray,
That you'll love me forever,
And forever you'll stay.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Once bitten, Twice shy

I dunno y bt the feeling of blogging sth abt mi struck mi on my way home from sch.. I was sitting alone on the bus cox i pon lect.. listening to music on my new mp3.. n suddenly tot abt wat a stranger said to mi yesterday.. tt person simply asked wat's my fav. colour n told mi eveything abt mi.. n it's true.. realli.. i was kinda surprised la.. i mean.. stranger? how wud he/she noe sia.. esp when i dun speak to strangers abt personal stuffs..

Anw.. he told mi my past.. as in how i got hurt in a relationship n nv did haf faith n courage to try again, giving my everything to try in another relationship.. how my ex(s) tried so hard to change juz for mi.. bt eventually, i left them still.. feeling tt i aint gd enuff for them.. tt im cheating them cox my heart's nt with them.. took so long to stand up after i fell after giving everything to a particular relationship.. i'm still trying to stand even till today.. i find it difficult to commit myself.. he told mi wat kinda guy im looking for.. he's rite.. im looking for someone who's nt so protective and sensitive.. someone who'll give mi space to breathe.. someone who is able to understand exactly wat i want n need.. someone who noes when to interfere n when nt to.. i half hope tt ppl will change for mi.. half wishing they wun change.. becox, if u change, u aint the same person anymore.. he told mi tt i;m a person who wud keep everything unhappy to myself.. how stressed i m.. etc etc.. im one who rather tt i suffer alone than having someone else suffer along with mi.. there's so many other things tt he told mi.. bt these r wat realli left mi thinking.. there's lotsa other things tt i wanna say.. bt.. i dunno hw to phrase it.. i'll leave those for another time.. when the feeling strikes mi n i feel like toking abt it.. *sigh* y m i so complicated?

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11:08 AM