Tuesday, August 23, 2005
tHiNkInG..
haix... so tired recently.. nt enuff slp.. sheesh.. had stage art today.. then Huang lao shi was telling us a story on his fren who survived the tsunami last yr.. his fren was supposed to go diving abt 10+ on the day he tsunami hit the island.. n tt the nite be4, there were lotsa big big ants crawling into the room.. n there was a route.. from the window, onto the bed n out the door.. they were hinting sth to us humans.. bt we took no heed.. instead, his fren swipped at them with the blankets.. killing, i guess, many of those ants who tried to warn them.. it was at this instance tt i suddenly felt tears in my eyes.. i dunno y.. heart juz suddenly ached for them.. they risked their lives to warn us.. yet we juz kill them without much tots.. n his fren was like cursing the bald coconut tree directly outside his hut.. cox it spoilt the photos etc.. n was bald.. bt in the end, if it wasnt for the tree, his fren mite nt haf survived.. i mean.. we nv noe when things we find such an eye-sore will become our saviour in the end rite.. i, for one, is someone who takes things for granted.. many times i told myself nt too.. bt so often.. i fail.. i dunno la.. juz thinking.. im like contradicting myself nw la.. mayb i expect too much from myself.. tt in the end, i expect the same from those arnd mi.. n when they fail to meet my expectations.. i cast them aside? i dunno.. it's so frustrating sometimes.. so stressful i am nw.. juz wanna vent my frustration on sth.. wanna cry out loud.. *gawd* i noe many of u will tell mi i can confide in u guys anytime i want to.. bt.. it isnt mi to share my probs.. i noe i shud pour my probs out.. bt everyone has got their own probs to take care of too rite.. y shud i bother them...
To those big-headed morons who think they noe mi well: plz.. u dun even noe mi at all.. nt a single bit.. if u say u do, wat is it exactly tt u noe? i can confidently say tt watever u noe of mi is purely superficial..
To my fav. class, MO2: guys/gurls.. i still love u pplx.. u're such a wonderful bunch to hang out with.. it's always laughter with u guys.. n i can pure out my unhappiness anytime to anyone of u.. well.. minus those who 'dun exist' in our class la..
To SMC: doubt u guys will ever get to read this.. bt realli, a big big thankq to u ppl! u've all been great!! love those time i spend out with u peeps.. roundings.. arcade.. or simply sitting down n chatting.. it realli helps mi forget my frustrations.. A bigger thank to Jackson for introducing mi to this wonderful bunch & for being my 'chauffer' to the gatherings =)
To my B4bY: realli enjoy chatting with u.. i dunno y.. bt ur smses n calls realli brighten up my day.. it's realli comforting to haf u by my side again.. i dunno wat made mi do wat i did 2yrs back.. bt baby, im glad u're back.. dun ever leave ok.. =)
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