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[[* A Blessing *]]

I never asked
For a blessing like you.
Like I've spoken to God
And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person
To love and to hold.
To be loyal and faithful
Not angry and cold.

God placed you on the earth
As a quest to find.
The one who would be there
So sweet and kind.

In my wildest dreams
I would have denied.
That something so perfect
Could at all be supplied.

You have such a sweet face,
But you are so much more.
You're my boyfriend and I love you,
Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement
I give you and pray,
That you'll love me forever,
And forever you'll stay.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

.:.mAyBe.:.

Im at a lost for words.. seeing hw much u've changed in such a short time.. But i guess.. this is the way u want it to b.. for wat reasons.. i dunno.. n i dun wanna guess.. so it's back to ur bubs n wicks n girls huh? well.. haf fun then.. enjoy ya.. bt i hope u'll stop this kinda life once u're bored of it.. nt tt i wanna interfere.. bt i cant juz stand aside n watch u waste ur life like tt.. yes.. i know im the one who caused it.. who made u resort to those to help u forget the pain.. i cant blame u.. bt is it worth it? to waste urself like tt.. to do the things u dun like.. to know the right from wrong but yet, u do the wrong? I cant help thinking of the times we had together.. even though im with him nw.. flashes of u still run thru my mind.. it's like im having my dinner n 'zOoM!' u run thru my mind jz liddat.. n i juz keep all so quiet suddenly.. cant help thinking of the past u.. i hate the present u.. i hate u decieving urself! wake up! i know u.. i know this is nt the life u want! u may say im wrong.. bt plz.. think twice or even thrice be4 u do/say anything! we may b worlds apart nw.. bt u'll nv be replaced.. i told u this be4.. n this promise i will uphold.. i dun care hw much u hate mi.. i juz want u to wake up.. u're sinking so deep.. i know i no longer hold the rights to tell u wat to do or wat not to do.. wat im saying nw.. is wat i realli feel.. n wud like u to hear.. whether u heed mi or nt, it's up to u.. u may think u appear strong to others nw.. bt think again.. r u realli strong nw? is this u, really u?

*I stare at our pics crying.. both tears of joy n pain.. i wonder wat i've done to u.. wonder wat in the world happened to u..we may nt b together nw.. bt i still care.. i still wanna know hw u're doing.. n wat u're doing does affect mi.. thou i may nt voice it out.. cox i no longer haf the rights.. bt it hurts still.. Baby.. plz wake up..*

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